Lord, I will trust you

"Search my heart, search my mind, search my soul
Make me clean, make me new, make me whole

All of my plans, all of my dreams,
I lay them down before Your feet
All of my time, all that was mine,
I now submit to Your design "

- Aaron Shust

Yesterday was the day. Court was in the morning and everyone went as scheduled. The first part of the day was not too bad because I was in, what I like to call, "task oriented" mode. I was the thinking about the legistics of everything. Then the afternoon came, then the evening, then night. Anyone who has ever had anything tragic happen ( or at least seemingly tragic) knows that the later it gets in the day, the more reality begins to settle in. I was with multiple people last night, yet I still felt alone.

The lyrics above are my theme song for this stage of life that God is allowing me to walk through. It is very easy to have the radio on and sing along to a song like this. But it takes on a whole new meaning when the thing(s) you hold dear are stripped away and you have to make the decision to place all that you love and hope for on the altar for God.

Lord I will trust you with my life
though my heart is broken
I will trust you
Through tears and through pain
I will trust you
Though I know not what tomorrow holds
I will trust you
Through this, and all things grow in me a spirit of contentment
Where ever You call me to be, I will trust you